Did I use this pic? I dunno. Well... Whatever. It fits my point. I just found out this night that my new friend RainbowGloStix is engaged to her Girlfriend. I thought that it was so romantic and awesome. Their 4 year aniversery is coming up real soon. It's towards the end of May. Cute... Made me think about a lot of things. Like... My relationship. With BR.... I dunno. Heh. She told me about how they became engaged. It was Valentines day a year ago (2008). She was horribly sick and it was a snow day. That right there sucks as is, but her girlfriend came over and well... I guess she gave her a candy heart that said "Merry Me" and that was that.... Then she threw up later that night. ^_^ I thought that was so sweet and romantic. Not the throwing up part. HA HA HA! That must have made her feel really happy. Something really sweet. I love those kind of stories! Sue me. People tend to think those stories are really stupid. I don't! It's sweet! And romantic. Deep down, every girl tends to dream of their love lives. Like... Who their Prince/Princess charming is! Who knows? Could be ANYONE!

Well... Talking to RGS made me think of My relationship. Isn't that selfish?? Ugh... I'm a horrible person. TT. TT But whatever. It made me think... What if I was to be engaged to BR? What then? Marriage has never really been MY thing. In my mind it's never been important. Marriage is just... There. Never been anything, but every once in awhile it's come up and I've considered it. This probably is just one of those times. It stays in my mind and then just dissapears. But I'm thinking of it now so I'm gonna talk about it! I was just thinking about what if I purposed to her? Would she turn me down? I know how she keeps it a secret from her WHOLE family, but she can't hide it forever! It's who she is... Why does she want to hide it? But... It does make me question whether or not she would agree to be my fiancee. And if I did, how would I do it? I think of a few ways, but nothing ever goes the way you plan it. Like... A really corny way I think of is just walking with her. Anywhere really.... But I would bend down pretending that something was wrong with my shoe and that I need her help and then as she trys to help me kiss her and ask her to marry me. *Sigh* I couldn't ever do that though. I'm too... Chicken. Too stupid! UGH! I dunno. What would I give her!?!?! I would want to give her something special, I know that! But... What? But what am I thinking. She would never agree to marry me. She might, but why? Why me? Besides... I'm not even out of highschool. It would be stupid of me to get engaged at such a young age. Even if I do feel like she's the only one for me. I care about her.... A lot. I hope that maybe we can fin peace together. And if we can't together, I hope she finds peace with whomever she chooses to spend her life with. Because... Because I love her.

~Demon~