Hello... Tis I again. Sorry I haven't updated in what seems like forever. I've been busy. Bleh. Anyway, I'm once again depressed. I know this because my options are Cut myself, Suicide, or killing everyone then myself. Yeah. That's usually a sign of depression. (I won't do the last one, so don't worry). I'm alone at home again. *Sigh* I kinda hate being alone. It makes me ancy. It's especially bad since I'm all upset and what not. Anyway, I suppose I should just get over it, it's just annoying when even my GF doesn;t understand me. No one ever does. They hear my complaining and just think I'm being overly dramatic. No... Not even my GF understand that. ESPECIALLY HER! She can get pissed at me, but I can't at her? I have a lot of things to deal with too. A mother that just looks at me like I'm nothing, people just TOLERATING me, being the 3rd wheel, the being ignored... especially being ignored. I have problems too. I didn't mean to make her mad at me. My GF I mean. I just can't believe that I just tell her to call me and she just get PISSED at me!!! She seriously DOESN'T get it.  She doesn't get me. I love her, but doesn't it's like I'm not a PERSON, I'm a THING. A play toy almost. Well... It seems like that. She says, "I'll call" then I don't hear from her for like a month. WHAT AM I TO HER!? I'm DONE! She needs to be honest with me!!! I understand she's busy, but I am too! I have things on my plate too, but I always find time to call her. No. I'm just not important like that! I invite her to come over and hang out becuase she always says, "I wanna hang out with you guys" but then she turns around and gives some excuse to AVOID such a "Horrible fate". Visiting your Girlfriend I guess to her is completely embaressing. SERIOUSLY! I'm working myself into an early grave over her. She needs to prioritize her life and she finds I'm a bother to her like I think I am, then she needs to decided what ahe wants to do. I'm not a THING. I have feelings that are CONSTANTLY crushed by her. Over and Over again... What is it? What's so horribly wrong with me? Maybe I haven't found love.

My life's a hellish Bitch. Looks like I have a lot to sort out.

~Demon~