Mood:  spacey

Hey. I actaully have time to write today. I'm slightly amazed. ^w^ I'm also really tired. *Yawn* So I wont have a lot to say today. I'll just talk about my day, I guess.

Today started out kind of bad. I had Remus' phone taken away. I felt HORRIBLE after that. It was sorrda crappy. It was bad... Then I got to Chemestry and it was okay. Mr. Yang's Class always makes me happy. Mr. Yang is a funny dude. He made a perverted joke about Steven Hawkings and Steven Hawkings' 2 wives. HA HA HA! I was just like, "MR. YANG!" And then we all laughed. Mr.Yang is a great guy. Anyway, after chem we went to Boces and that was really boring. Then we came back to the school and worked on Tora-con stuff. We worked on skits and stuff. Well... Mostly organizing crap. HA HA HA! Then I went to swimming. It was hard, but we have an invitational tomorrow. THAT will not be so fun. It never really is. We're going to have to sit in a gym for half the day. *Sigh* I don't see the fun in that!!!

Anyway, it's almost midnight. I have to get going. I have to go to bed. Well, I'll be writing tomorrow! Bye!

~Demon~

Mood:  hug me

Ugh.... Hey... I sorrda had a bad day. I guess it's the "Female Hormones" God I hate those things... =_= You see, I got really upset and began crying today in swimming. I just sort of broke down. You see I talked to my GF earlier today and I just miss her SO MUCH! She means so much to me. And on top of that my friends have just been getting on my last nerves. I don't know. They just seem to be annoying me. I mean, Remus will out in her headphones whenever I'm trying to talk to her and that just makes me really mad. It's mean! It's like saying, "Sorry, but I REALLY do not want to listen to you". She claimes that she can hear me, but I don't really care. It's rude. And Kibbles does the same thing. Then they end up having these conversations where whenever I try to get into them they completely push me out again. *Sigh* Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever end up being something more then just the 3rd weel. I hate this. Then one one of them always says that THEY are the 3rd weel! HOW?! They always seem to hang out all the time. I mean.... I'm always the backup choice. You see, whenever Kibbles can't have Remus over then she'll call me. And if Remus can't have Kibbles over then she'll call me. W-T-F?!?!?! And they do TELL me this! Which makes me feel like absolute SHIT. Like... I'm just not good enough for them. That I'm just the last choice and only when they are BORED. That really depresses me, and they don't ever see that.

Maybe I'm over reacting, but you seriously need to live in my shoes. =_= Anyway, I have to be off... Bye.

~Demon~

Mood:  blue

Hey... I'm really sad.... As I always am after I talk to BR, my Girlfriend. I called her earlier today and was only able to talk to her for only about 5 minutes. I miss her dearly. She's... My everything.... I miss her so much! And I question a lot of things about our "relationship". Does she love me? Am I a one night stand for her? Will... I ever be able to see her again? Life without her is aliving hell. I hate it. IT'S COMPLETE BULLSHIT! I love her! But... If she doesn't love me, then what's the point??? She never calls me. She always ditches me. She's ashamed to be SEEN with me!! What's THAT all about?! I'm more then willing to let the world know that I love her, but she, herself has a lot she needs to work out. I think she needs to get over her fears of being... HERSELF! She's just so ashamed of me. Why? I'll support her decision no matter what. Even if it's breaking up with me. I'll be there for her till the very end, because I love her. I love her. I want to make her happy, even if I'm sad, but I'm not willing to give up so easily. I'll follow her to the ends of the earth and more. BR is the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I just wanna be with her. I just wanna run away with her. Just her and me. Us, together, forever. *Sigh* Like that could ever truely be. She's too affraid. She'll never see it my way... Never...

Well, I have to get going. I have school tomorrow, so I have to go nighty night. Bye bye.

~Demon~

Mood:  lazy

Hello peoples. I had a pretty okay day today. ^^ I just got a new cell phone. I'm excited, but at the same time, I'm worried. I wonder if I can keep up with putting minutes onto the phone. TT. TT I hope I can... It would royally suck if I cannot. Meh... I'm tired. *Yawn* Nothing really BIG happened today, but I do have SOME news.

First off, earlier today my friend Remus came up to me and asked me if I knew that our friend (We'll call her "T") was a lesbian. At frist I was just like... What? But then Remus explained to me how T's friends were talking about it and they told her. I was sorrda thinking that maybe they were just being sarcastic.  At the same time, I'm not so sure. =_= I wish it wasn't considered "Rude" to ask people if they were gay or not... But my friend assumed I knew that she was a lesbian because I'm Bi. I don't think T's a lesbian. Bi, maybe, but we never know. Besides who cares?

Hm... Other news? Oh yeah! I wasn't able to swim today, which made me kinda sad. I mean... I think I'll be able to swim tomorrow, but at the same time, I'm not so positive. =_= But anyway... I just watched my friends swim. My friend Remus (Again) was kinda pissed because she had to switch lanes like 5 times. It really pissed her off because she thought they didn't want her in the lane, but it was just them being them! They do it all the time... *Sigh* Oh well, I guess. She was really pissed and got upset. I mean I know how she feels, but... yeah. You see, I KNOW people don't want me in their lane because they end up saying stuff like, "Uh... Why don't you go into THAT lane... We have too many people" and the lane they point to has like 5 more people then the lane I'm in. Seriously. Annoying.

Well overall that was my day. I went to the store with my friends before I went to swimming.... Yeah... We got chips and Mountain Dew. I dunno why... We just did, okay? ^^d Well, talk later! See ya!!

~Demon~ 

HELLO! Again... Heehee. ^^ I was just thinking about Tora-con again today. I'm SOOO Excited! I can't WAIT to go there. It's gonna be really fun. Well.... I hope anyways. I was also thinking of what I could go as next year. Here's my list:

~Orginal Lolita

~Sally from Nightmare before Christmas

~Nagisa from Strawberry Panic!

~Ayame from Furuba

~Major from Hellsing

~Lolita Naruto From Naruto/Original

~Lulu from Final Fantasy X

~Haruhi from Haruhi Suzumiya

~Lolita Zeld from Zelda/Original

~Demyx from Kingdom Hearts II

~Luffy from One Piece

~Sanji from One Piece

~A shop Keeper from Soul Calibur III

And.... That's about it. I suppose it doesn't look like a lot, but hey. It's a hard choice. I was starting to consider Sally, but making a lolita costume just seems so awesome. All the frills and and the different designs. XD They seem so KEWL!! But at the same time, SALLY! Sally is awesome and I think it would be fun to paint myself blue for a day. However.... I don't wanna do something that gives my dad permission to make fun of me for months on end. My dad is probably gonna be taking us. He's really cool about all this kind of stuff. He really likes the fact that I'm into anime. He's a trekie himself and he's always wanted to go to a convention. I think he sees it as the chance for me that he never had. YAY!!! But I'm trying to get my license so that I don't have to get rides from my dad. Given that I'll need to borrow his car, but that's not the point. I'm not actually sure as to whether or not he'll let me use his car.... Huh... Well whatever. I just wanna go so bad!!! I do wanna finish up my costume, however. And finish the skits... My friends wanna do a great skit, but they say that they wanna ask for more time. You see, the rules state that each person or group is only aloud 3 minutes. AND NO MORE TIME WILL BE GIVEN!!! But my friends keep insisting that I ask the guy if we can have more time, but the rules say that you will not be granted more time and anyone asking for more time will be told no. I'm completely against the idea of asking for more time, but they insist that I do it. I told them to ask themselves, but Remus said that I'm the only one who is in contact with him. GAH! AND???? I've E-mailed him enough!!! I'm not dealing with this BS!!! Then I told them that they might DQ us at the skit rehersal. Kibbles, the GENIOUS she is, said, "Then why not do a different skit at the rehersal. One that ISN'T under 3 minutes." I wanted to slap her. SERIOUSLY!!! I do not wanna get into trouble at this convention, okay?!?! They can if they want, but I'm not. I'll do the dance if I have to. 3minutes doesn't seem all that long down on paper, but it's a lot longer then you think. We'll have plenty of time. I really do not wanna deal with them insisting that we make our skit like 7 minutes long. Which Kibbles did at one point. That time even Remus said no. But Remus doesn;t seem to thin that making the skit 5 minutes is a big deal. It kinda is... When you're trying to get through everyone's skit in just enough time so the vast amount of people who showed up to watch can go to the other events, a 5 minute skit seems like a waste. Anyway, I hope they don't do that. It'll piss me off if they do. You don't wanna mess with me as the time goes down for tora-con and we haven't gotten ANYTHING done. *Growls* But I am looking forward to it. We're doing artist alley stuffs and we're gonna hang out with awesome peoples, and yeah! Last year was great... I'm guess this year will be awesome too!

Well anyway, I suppose I'll be off. I have school tomorrow... yay.... It doesn't feel like it's been all that long, but I guess it has... DAMN! I don't think I can swim tomorrow either. -_- Coach will be pissed at me because we have a meet this tuesday and I won't be at the practice right before it. *Sigh* Well... Whatever... I'll talk later. Bye.

~Demon~

Mood:  blue

Hey... I feel hated.... I think I'm being told that I spam. But, how? I'm on a lot, yeah, but how does that make me a spammer??? I mean, I try to stay on topic. I suppose I do post a lot of topics... T.T But whenever I try to find the topic I specifically want, no one's done it, so I just... Make a new one. And I guess my PDPP topic was a little spammy, but I sorrda wanted to show my friends the videos we worked so hard on and get their oppinion on what we  should do. *Sigh* I'm a loser, aren't I? TT. TT Oh and the Forum I'm taling about is animemb.com . I like it there, but I fear that I'm  are gonna have to leave because I'm supposidly spammin. I don't wanna be a burden!!!! Now I wanna cry. *huff* Man... My Girlfriend will be mad at me. She hates n00bs like that. *Sigh* I no mean to be a n00b though. When the board has a lot of dead posts then you tend to want to start them up again, or make a few new ones that you think with survive. I suppose that's the new deffinition of spamming. Sad, really. I'm actually considering just completely getting off this forum. It seems like all the mods really HATE me and only like... 1 person get's along with me. WTF, man?! I'm starting to get pissed with that forum. I mean, it was fun at first, but then people just started becoming bitchy and unorganized.

Meh... Now I'm hung up over it.... DAMN! =.= I hate being hung up over this stupid crap. Well, I guess I'll go a little early. Bye Bye.

~Demon~

Mood:  a-ok

Hello... Again... XD I am SICK. Well.. I feel better now. I was sick earlier, though. I decided not to go to swimming practice today because I was sick. I suppose that maybe it's not exactly good to be skipping swimming, but hey, people aren't me. So... Yeah... I ended up spending like my whole day on the computer. Which is bad. And I looked up a bunch of Cosplay stuff. You see... I'm shopping around for a golden blond wig. I'm going to Tora-con as Seras Victoria from Hellsing and I don't want to dye my hair blond. I have brown hair for the record. Anyway, so yeah. I've been shopping around online and all the wigs online are SOOO EXPENSIVE! GAH! One of the best wigs I found that was the cheapest was $38! That's a lot in my book, okay? Well anyway, I've been just looking around and then I decided to look at Cosplay pics. XD YAY!!!

That did get me thinking of Tora-con. It's only 4 months away, now. You see, we haven't gotten everything set for Tora-con just yet. We still have to decide whether or not some people are going to be in a skit or if people want to be in artest alley or who everyone is going as. That's annoying, ya know? And on top of that we have so much to do otherwise! Like.... Swimming, the play practice, our family lives, jobs, and school. Well... I don't think we all have jobs, but I'm trying to get one, okay? But all that stuff plus Tora-con stuff. We haven't even gotten a script for the skit yet. Or layed down moves for the dance... OR even decided what kind of a skit we're going to do... Plus there's getting stuff together for artests alley. That's not of grave importance right now, though. ^_^ Heehee. I suppose what bothers me most is our Alucard, BR, hasn't even STARTED her cosplay costume and she doesn't even care. THAT SO BLOWS, ya know? She says she wants to go, but I really don't think she's even that into it like Remus, Kibbles and I are. We really loved last year's convention. It was fun. She wasn't able to go because she had to be in a different state cellebrating her grandma's 100th birthday. She didn't even seem that excited back then either. AND she always tries to make it seem like she doesn't want to go around other people. What? Is she ashamed of likeing anime? There's nothing wrong with it. I mean... Yeah. It's the "Geeky" thing, but who cares? It's all just fun and games. *Sigh* I wish she would tell me whether or not she was actually ashamed about going to an anime convention....

Welll I guess that's enough of my stupid rant. ^^ Good Bye! And I hope I can swim tomorrow.... Oo

~Demon~ 

Mood:  not sure

^^ Yo. I've been playing Kingdom Hearts II. It's an addicting Game!I love it. For awhile I was stuck on the fight with Xigbar, but I got past him. XD YAY! He's really hard. My friends told me he was the hardest in the game. I hope that they are right... Anyway, I like it, but I really don't like some of the worlds I have to go to in that game. It's not like they are hard, it's just I don't like them. I dunno why... I just don't! It's weird like that, okay???

Anyway, our phone stopped working yesterday. It kinda sucks. We were late on the bill, and, well... Yeah. *Sigh* Well... It was my mom's phone. Not my dad's. My dad is actually good on that kind of stuff. He doesn't have a bunch of text crazy friends, like my mom. And... He actually READS the contract. My mother just asumes something just because she hears it. It's pretty stupid. *Nod Nod* You see... We managed to rack up a really big bill because we thought that free calling was after 7pm, when it was really after 9pm. You can pay like an extra $10 a month to have it after 7pm, but we found out too late. So... We have a $400 Bill. That would be my fault, I guess, but I didn't know! I was never told!!!! So, how can it seriously and truely be my fault? GAH! So now I have to get my own phone... Don't know how to do that one though.I have no job, and it's really hard. I try and try, but with no luck. Anyway, my dad said he might buy me a phone, but only if I go on a plan. GAH! Then I find out my mom's just gonna get a "To Go" phone from Cingular. This means I won't be able to use it. Typical. But I really need a phone. For swimming practice as well as lifeguarding and a play practice and a lot of stuff!! It's a pain. My mom always says that I could just simply use someone else's phone, but no one ever lets me use theirs. They always give me some dumb ass excuse. Like "I don't have one" when I just say them texting with it and then they put it in their pocket. It's very frustrating... But anyway, I hope I can get a phone. I want it to be Virizon because everyone has it and it's free for Virizon to Virizon, so I would be gettin a really good deal. I do want a pre-paid phone. ANd I kinda want one with a camera... Heh... That's really the only "Vanity" thing I want for it.

Anyway, then that's enough of my stupid ranting. Heehee. Well, I suppose I'll write more some tomorrow. ^^ Bye

~Demon~

Mood:  lazy

Hello again. *Sigh* Life sorrda sucks, ya know? You have to make like a thousand plans that never really go over as well as you want them too and then people are satisfied with the outcome. I know that that's gonna be the case with me at Tora-con. Tora-con is an anime convention that I go to. I just started last year and now it's gonna be an every year thing for us. That kind of stuff is really fun, ya know?

Anyway, what I mean about the plans is my friends and I have been planning about what we are gonna do at Tora-con this year. Like... Our skit and selling out artwork stuff like that. We ended up having to break up into 2 groups for the skit, but that's not as big a deal as one may think. Everyone's okay with it. So anyway, We are planning on doing artist alley stuffs (It's a place artests can sell their artwork atthe convention) but when you have like 7 people who wanna put artwork in then it becomes a pain. We have to get all the stuff for that and to top it off we have to make our cosplay costumes still1 None of us have even STARTED!!! The convention is in April buteveryone's so busy... No one has time to work on anything, which is stressful for Kibbles, Remus, and I (The people who are practically putting this thing together). It's coming to the point where both Remus and I are getting pissy. NO MORE NICE GIRLS! We NEED to work on the skits and we NEED to work on the Costumes. The Artest Alley stuff can hold off, but it's still important. We need all the artests deciding which of their works they want to put in and their prices and stuff like that. Not so big. The convention seems a long ways off, but in reality it's not. We have about 4 months now and these months have been going by SO FAST! And if we keep procrastinating we are gonna end up not being able to do anything. *SADNESS* I'm really worried about my GF, BR, not getting her Alucard Cosplay done. She's so busy with College. Plus she's not as into it as me or the others. Integra, her best friend and my Friend, Said that she would help BR, but she can't just do it for BR. Where's the fun in that??? Seriously. Half the fun is making your costume. XD I'm going as Seras from Hellsing.... I just got some stuff today. I was really happy about that. I feel like I'm finally taking a  step forward. YAY! I'm gonna borrow my friend's sewing machine since she never uses it. I need to make a skirt...I hate wearing skirt... They bother me....

Well I hope we can get SOMETHING done for Tora-con. I feel like a jerk because I keep pushing people to work on Tora-con related stuff. I'll just bring it up whenever then insist we decide a few things. Heehee... I suppose I'm just a bitch like that, but oh well. Hope all have a great  day. ^__^

~Demon~

Mood:  chillin'

Merry Christmas to all! Yes... Today is the day of gift giving and joyess children. Well... kinda. I dislike the holidays. To many it's all about getting and not giving. Plus it's kinda stupid that the industries use this holiday to get people to buy crap that they really don't need. *Sigh*

Anyway, This is a Hellsing Christmas because I wore my Hellsing T-shirt with my Black and red plad skirt. I ran out of pants. And I have an embarressing story to tell!!! XD You see, whenever I wear my Skirt I wear stokings too because I hate my legs. They really suck... Anyway, I have a run right in the front of them, but the skirt covered it up. Well I had gotten up and went into the kitchen to look at the time and I was pulling down the back of my skirt when I realized I hate a run in the BACK too. Now, my skirt covered it up when I was standing, but when I sat down it didn't. Plus my skirt runs up whenever I sit so when I get up I have to pull it down. So... Basically... The run in the back was visable whenever I got up from a chair! I was just naturally embarressed by this (Though no one saw it) so I went into the other room where my mom was talking to my aunts and Grandpa and said that she still needs to put her lady to bed (One of her jobs is to put this lady with MS to bed because she can't move on her own. Her name is Kay). My mom gets up and says, "Yeah. I do. And I still have to go another place too." So I was so relieved to get home and into my PJs. XD It's not a very good story written down, but you should have seen my reaction. I spent like 5 minutes trying to hide my butt from everyone's eyes. XD HA HA HA! And my aunt asked why I was walking Backwards out the door. I told her that it was just fun and can't a girl walk out a door suspiciously?! XD HA HA HA! I do stuffl like that alll the time, so it's nothing unusual. ^__^ Heehee.

Well Anyway I wish all a merry Christmas and a Happy night.XD Have fun with your Christmas!

~Demon~